Begin Within

Authority VS Authenticity

May 28, 2009

Hello, and welcome to my first blog. When I first sat down to write, I noticed feelings arise around expectations to write something profound; something that would offer me credibility and validate my expertise in the field of personal and spiritual development.

The creation of this website has been a humbling experience. I created over 10 re-writes of the home page until my intentions became clear. Initially I felt pressured to represent myself as an “authority”, as this is what appears to be typically recommended. However, once I reflected on the purpose for this website, I realized that being regarded as an authority was not as relevant as offering authenticity and my truth. And the truth is, the only thing I’m a true authority on is my own experience.

Once I finally released the need to be seen as any kind of “spiritual guru”, I felt an enormous sense of freedom, because THAT is such a large part of what I’m striving for in my own personal path; the freedom to accept who I am, wherever I am.

As a “recovering perfectionist” this has been a challenge for me, but I have recognized far too frequently how perfectionism has been my own worst enemy. I have avoided taking risks in life due to fear of failure and fear of success. Now, I openly share my mistakes and welcome humility. This has been helpful in my own growth, as it is out of this, that true strength is derived.

And so instead of authority, I choose authenticity. And my hope is that in my choosing this, my words may resonate deeper or this may inspire others to consider releasing the need to be anything other than who they are. Perhaps just for today, we can look in the mirror and say “this is who I am and that is enough”.

And by the way… now that I don’t have to be perfect, I think this whole blogging thing is going to be a lot more fun. ;)

As always…. Begin Within.

“If I am not I, who will I be?” Henry David Thoreau